Friday, September 22, 2017
Though for many in my mother's life whom had not figured out why she had to become so strong headed, there were as many whom had realized how soft hearted she was. She had many burdens to bare, and responsibilities she had not been afforded the time that anyone would've needed to become prepared for- when considering the complicated definitions of 'love' and 'affection' she was taught and shown. I am sincerely left with appreciation for her every effort to protect us, and.guide us away from having to adopt the kind of experiences that she and some of her siblings were exposed to at such an early age of childhood. Im thankful for the time that we did have to grow and understand those unspeakable events that so many children have innocently accepted but then eventually had realized was going to remain for them as unforgettable memories of shame and embarrassment- all from the betrayal of the trust they had no reason to believe was even in jeopardy. My mother was so beautiful despite the ugly and awful conduct that could have corrupted her self-worth beyond repair, and so passionate in her moments of expression. She wrote a song on the piano that continued to move and inspire me all throughout my life. I embraced that gift that she shared with a select few. She would surely have shown the world so much more if she had ever been shown a place of trust and honorable intent. She like all of us had to accept life with many situations that had caused her to build that wall of protection so that nothing else would give her any more scars that she kept hidden. I love you my mom for bring as good as anyone could hope from all that you endured, and thank you for accepting two children at once and still persevering as an unprepared mother. I love your music and your voice. I am the reflections of the best parts of who you were. May I be of honor to your eternal memory.
Your Son, Bryan
